Wishful Thinking

I woke up this morning wanting to do so many things in preparation for this next year, 2010. I feel that this year will be full of learning and gathering knowledge to boost me to the next level. This past year, really my first year in marriage has truly been a growing experience. I have gotten everything I could possibly imagine in a partner plus aspects I didn't even recognize I need in my life. I'm very proud of this forward movement. At the New Year we will have paid off all of my debt outside of school loans and my car. This has been very exciting for me! I'm considering the possibility of getting a second job to expedite some of the school loans payments. But thinking on it yesterday and reviewing my goals I'd rather move forward with my stationary business 'Lovely Notes'. I think if I dedicated the same amount of time to creating the product and managing the business that in the long run (a year or two)I'll be more profitable. My current goal is to setup an online store on Esty's and sell the card sets there. I'll start with just a matching set of 12 (card w/ lined envelope) in a nice "keepsake" box for $20.
Last night I dreamt of color coordinated sticker seals and embossing the envelopes with my logo. After doing well at the little MMHS Craft Show I've been keeping my eye out to participate in more of them but that also means that I need to be making a regular stocked product. Just now I thought of ribbon and plastic sleeves for the smaller sets. I would love if some boutique wanted my notes as a featured product or it to be an Oprah favorite thing, something HUGE like that would be Awesome! In the meantime I need to finish this process for my certification. I hope to take my last set of tests in March (I'm still debating taking a late fee to do the test earlier). It's English Writing and Special Ed Curriculum, I know I need a study guide for that last one. My thought is to study over the Winter Break and test in January to be ready to go for next school year then, once I start teaching the Practicum finish my Masters' by the second year to power boost the pay- because of the pay grade jumps from para- to 1st year teacher(Bachelors') to 2nd yr with a Master's. The break I get for being in school on top of loan forgiveness for working five years in a 'Title One' school that should take care of the school loans nicely. And if business is booming with the cards I could start making calendars, planners and contact books. I might have to retire from teaching by my 6th or 7th year.
Wishful Thinking...
But on the spiritual side this Yule/Alban Arthuran Philip and I will be initiated into the Druid Order of the Three Realms. For a while I had been making this transition really hard (Philip makes everything sound so complex and intricate) on top of my own hesitations about being in an organized group and joining along side my husband. But when I reflected on my spiritual activity this past year I realized that I had been doing some of the required practices. The point of next year is to do it on purpose with a focus and record growth. Hopefully today I can get some concrete plans organized. I want everything setup and ready to go so there are no excuses to stall out. Philip of course has been very helpful by adding all different types of yoga instructional videos to our hard-drive; gathering books for our library and I think we will even end up doing some of our practice's plan together (learning about local plant life etc). He wants to do nature survival courses and camping which is fine and will be very interesting to say the least. One of my favorite things we do, ever since we started dating, is walking through a park, just talking and enjoying nature. Another part of my plan is to study Tarot as a form of divination. I'd like to cross-stitch each card of the Major Arcana or the Tableau meditating on each one as I go. That really has to be setup. I'm going to have to create a pattern to do it but it should be fun. So by this time next year I'll be pretty much finished.
Ultimately I have to remember to enjoy the moment although next year will be just as exciting as this one has; resting in these lulls is necessary.

Blessed Be