Inner Voice vs. Ego

My ego has been picking at me all week, its been just a chatter box. I have done my mediation to tune this noise out but it has become quite distracting as of late. I have my objective and I can see the obstacles. Part of me thinks that if I try and do all the other things I want to do then I'll finally get some peace and quiet in my head to do the  things I know I need to do. It seems very backwards and at this point I'm so caught up in this arguememt with my ego that that the very same ego is fearful I won't get any of it done, as in I'll just avoid it all. After being woken up by this chattering this morning I have come to my mediation room for grounding and to gain perspective. So if I babble on it's just me working it out.

My wants:
1- to make a hospital gown for Jessica it will take 6 hours and I want it done before she goes into major labor which could be anytime between now and March first. This 'deadline' makes it feel urgent, and the disapointment of not getting it done in time because of my own procrastination aplifies and is irking me.

The next thing is doing sweet stuff for Philip. Since February 1st it has been my goal to better demonstrate my love and respect for him. It has been a challenge and I do falter sometimes. All last week I've been posting messages on his door and making little things. Well this Tuesday is craft day and I want to make an anniversary card for him. But I also have a list of stuff that I want to make both editable and crafty projects that it feels like if I don't sew and bake them today I won't have the time to present them.

I got to get it all done so then I can study because my test is next week. I just want it all out of the way so I can focus deeply. All this other stuff keeps pulling me out of my mind set. Then there is all the cleaning and clearing out that has to be done before any of the craft or baking can begin.

Here's the list-
Clear off the desk
File papers
Set up sewing machine
Clear table for cutting fabrics
Post three hearts on Philip's door
Make nutella pop tarts
Make red velvet cupcakes
Prep smoothies for the week
Prep dinner/lunches for the week
Cut hospital gown pattern
Sew hospital gown
Cut bag pattern
Sew bag
Start mediation book
Meet Lauren for coffee
Finish coloring card
Practice/ prep Tuesday's craft
Study!!!

I accept that my life will be high energy from this moment on. I accept that not every thing I want done will be done when and at the time that I feel it needs to be done. Ulitmately, I have the power of the universe supporting me so it is possible through my  focusing all this energy toward these goals they will be accomplished.

Thanks Inner Voice I needed to hear the above.